rise and root

***

~*~*~*~
by the gorgeous bohemian wild roses~thank you me dear xoxoxo


The Flame Haired Solstice Dreamer

Cold winter brings the Everfrost and jewels every tree
In a forest new as birth and old as old can be
A flame~haired dreamer wanders there and shelters from the wind
And spins her dreams around the trees to break the ties that bind
She takes her thread and spins anew and how the Greenwood smiles
As she spins a spell for freedom and for her spirit Wylde

The dreamer finds an ancient oak and shelters in his lee
In a forest new as birth and old as old can be
Tis summer now and birdsong weaves its magick through her spells
And humming bees drum drowsily in the foxglove's bells
The dreamer sits beneath the oak with yarn upon her knee
And spins and knits and weaves her dreams and sets her spirit free

***
"When birds fall from the sky and the animals are dying, a new tribe of people...shall come unto the earth from many colors, classes, creeds, who by their actions and deeds shall make the earth green again. they will be known as the warriors of the Rainbow"

Hopi Prophecy

~a beautiful island part 1~

well here i am after another long gap in my blogging.

The week before my trip to Madeira was lost in a flurry of packing and making sure that swampy and the fur-babies had plenty of food in and that the place was nice and tidy.

we had spent one day on the little island of  Madeira, which is off the coast of Africa, when we went on our cruise a few years ago and couldn't wait to return

the day before our flight swampy drove us to Gatwick airport where we were going to stay the night ready to be at the right terminal at 6am.
i love the excitement of going away and staying somewhere different and i spent ages just watching the lights from the window.


bright and early found us sitting in the departure lounge of Gatwick South Terminal


once we took off i was able to settle myself into a window seat and watch the land pass below us. the flight took us right over the new forest and if it were not for the cloud that covered the land until we were across the channel i would have seen my village from the air!


 the sky cleared so i could look down on north west France...



i spent the four hour flight with my crochet and reading...


then we started to descend and  Madeira appeared out of the clouds 




because the airport on Madeira is so small we were off the plane, through customs and holding our bags within 20 minutes and waiting for our ride to our hotel. despite the warmth it was lashing with rain...just like being at home! apparently the airport is also one of the most dangerous to land at (just google it!) and i admit i have never had quite an interesting landing on all the flights i have taken. 




we were soon checked into our room at the Ocean Gardens, 
the hotel is in the area of Sao Goncalo which is on a cliff looking down on the town of Funchal but we were swathed in cloud and could see nothing from our balcony


once unpacked we set out to explore the hotel and its gardens






then the sky started to clear and the Atlantic stretched away before us ...


and Funchal slowly revealed itself...



it looked so beautiful and i just knew we were going to have a fantastic week...

~yule~

well how was your yule?

i admit that this year i have really struggled, really, really struggled.
for weeks now i have had problems with insomnia, i fall asleep easily but find myself waking around 3-4am and more often than not i get up instead of staying in bed and trying to get back to sleep.
boxing day found me up at 1am, wide awake, knowing my family were going to arrive later that morning and i had to cook dinner for the five of us.

luckily i made it but i am feeling so run down and exhausted. as i am off on holiday with my sister next week i really need to get on top of this.

the weather here has been grey and damp for weeks now with only a day or two of sunshine, a few days ago i was able to get washing on the line and magpie and merlin had fun playing in the garden





i was given some new books for yule which i have started already...


my neighbour Calv sent round some lovely ginger biscuits


and this morning i had a nice chai latte


choosing incense



and finally meet 'Gibson' our 1999 VW T4...


we finally sold 'Pretty Pagan' for something considerably smalller, something more of a pocket rocket. 
because we have lilith our crazy little french folding caravan we no longer needed a big camper with all the bells and whistles



 unfortunately a week or two after bringing him home some low life broke in and stole every one of swampys tools and so the spare money we had to turn him into a day van went on replacing all the tools, then he broke down and more money had to go on his repairs.
because it involved taking a lot of the engine apart swampy decided to replace a lot of the parts with nice new ones. we finally had him repaired and with his MOT the friday before yule.

once i am back from my holiday we will be slowly working on the interior~nothing fussy, just a seat than turns into a bed and a unit for the 'kitchen'.


this morning swampy put a hook up my my alter to hang my shaman drum from...although i just realised that in the new year we will be moving things around in our living room and it will have to come down again anyway!


~and relax~


well swampy and i had to go and venture into Southampton today to get a final few gifts for my family and we were dreading it, imagining the hoards of people we would have to battle through.
amazingly it was no more busy than a regular saturday and so the whole thing was quite relaxed.

As usual i went into waterstones and swampy bought me the most perfect gift...



i have always adored everything moomin related and first read the books back in the early seventies when i first learnt to read and even now i read mooninland midwinter every yule (i have a few pages left of this years re-read and plan on reading it tomorrow evening at bedtime)


this morning my beautiful magpie had to sit for a cuddle before we went out...

 

i gave my shaman drum a bit of loving care yesterday, damping down the skin a little as i had planned on using it for a yule pathworking i was doing with my soul systers in the evening. unfortunately i was feeling so tired and unwell i couldn't drum but was able to do the pathworking.


unfortunately swampy made a bit of distracting noise as well so i am planning another pathworking tomorrow morning when he is out with flynt. this gives me a good hour to sit in front of my altar and start my pathworking with some drumming.

my yule altar...




we have things looking festive here, paper chains and fairy lights in the hallway
candles and fairy lights in our living room


i spent one happy afternoon watching White Christmas


working on my festive yule blanket of classic granny squares...


and i love my tree...


~winter solstice~

So here we are
At the cusp of the winter solstice.

The great wheel has made another turn and we find ourselves waking from our winter slumber, the time we have spent hibernating, withdrawing into our dark world, making our inner journeys.

Now is the time of rebirth, a time to wake and become active again, using the wisdom we have gained over the dark months.

I have been working with my shamans oracle today and was given three cards...

The spirit of challenge
The dancer of lies
The hunter of death

The spirit tribe is linked with th ice cave, aether
inspiration, spirit, purification and dreams.
The challenge here is all about gathering the energy to move forward, grabbing courage, taking risks, determination.

The tribe of dancers is linked with the cave
of hearthfire, fire, home, protection, joy and transformation.
The challenge here is all about confronting the truth in order to conquer the lies within and find our way back to our path. It's all about distraction, darkness, inner conflict.

The tribe of hunters are linked with the cave of rivers, water, journeys fertility, emotion and boundaries.
What we embrace with this particular death card is far from negative, it speaks to us of the death of negativity, the old, unhelpful ways and the potential of glorious transformation...of awakening, renewal, change.

This all links so beautifully with the winter solstice and my life...the cards still have the power to surprise me with their truths.

Over the dark months I have allowed my depression and anxiety to get the better of me. I have done little but sit on my sofa and read or crochet when the whim took me. I have done no crafting and had little inclination to do anything. 
Now I am feeling more positive.






~finding my way~

Well here i am again.

I am trying to get myself back into a routine and start blogging regularly again.

More importantly I need to get myself back on my spiritual path, I feel as if I have drifted far from the path I was following. Oddly enough my friend the Welsh wizard recently said exactly the same thing.
I try to work with either my tarot or shaman oracle each day, accepting whatever card is given me, placing it on my sacred space.
I have even taken out my incense to improve on my Yule blend to burn over the coming weeks. My pestle and mortar scrubbed ready to grind up my juniper.

Even better I have started to think again about my crafting for the wylde apothecary, I have some antler points and gorgeous agate nuggets which are crying out to be created into something.

***

Well I am sitting here and feel a little excited as a few rays of sunlight are breaking through the clouds, I love the winter, I always feel it is my time, but all the rain we have been having is quite draining on the soul. I feel quite cooped up, not even being able to sit in the garden.
Today I plan to wrap some gifts and then maybe sit out even if it's just for ten minutes.








~so long~

It's been so long since I posted here.
Despite little really happening it seems that a lot has.

I lost my beautiful little boy Miami which was heartbreaking and I find I still can't bring myself to write about it. I have even been avoiding writing in my journal.

I have been attending a lot of hospital appointments with my mum as she has been registered as severely visually impaired. She is attending all kinds of clinics and I am finding it incredibly exhausting because of my fibro etc. 
We finally sold our huge vw and bought a smaller one, which unfortunately is off the road needing work which swampy is doing as the weather allows...we really need some luck!






~thank you~


thank you all for your your kind comments and thoughts.

things here have settled down

swampy came home that night after blood tests, x rays and scans etc~they found nothing wrong and i believe that it is deferred pain due to the nerve damage in his spine which is the root of his dreadful back problems.

***

flynt has had his stitches out and is back to his old 'norty' self. 
however now his walks are now on his lead and around all the different roads, lanes and alleys around the village where we know he cannot play with and unintentionally swallow bits of tennis ball and pine cones. his is getting used to being on a lead and is becoming much better in not pulling like a crazy thing.

***

i am just getting over a three day migraine and sitting here checking the list i have on my laptop for when we go away



...on friday we set off for busfest...which means my cat-kids have to go into a cattery which i hate. usually my sister is able to cat-sit which she loves but she will be away in cambridge for work.

i am looking forwards to going away as it means i get to live in Lilith for eleven days and although we have electric hook up to run a kettle and little fridge we have no tv, no electric lights...to me perfect.

***

this week i had a telephone appointment with a diabetic nurse with the west hampshire community diabetes service and have had my medication added to. another pill for me to take which i hope helps.

then i had a short telephone conversation with a lady from italk a psychological therapy service as my gp wasnt happy with the contents of our discussion about my depression. as a result i have an appointment with a lady called marina (which makes me think of stingray...any of you over 40 will remember that!)

so i feel i am plodding here in this ancient forest, drifting again from the things that are important to me. i am hoping that while away i can find the peace and focus i need to put myself back on some kind of track

~turning wheel~


there has been such a distinct change in the weather here.

i first noticed it a couple of weeks after Litha, just a small change, a chill in the early morning air, a cooler night air flowing through my bedroom window.

when the sun is out during the day it is a hot sun and today, even clouded over, the air is hot.

our forest is over run with tourists and so i try to avoid going into the village as so many people makes my head spin.

things here have been a bit stressful as our beautiful Flynt became poorly. he was sick one day and brought up a pine cone...a large pine cone but he continued being sick, and an examination on our third trip to the vets confirmed there was a foreign object in him and he was operated on the same day. 
the result?
a piece of some other dogs tennis ball he must have swallowed while at his favourite spot in the forest.
so for the last ten days he has been at home slowly recovering, taking antibiotics and swampy and i living in terror for this was how we lost our beautiful Cody and we have been living in fear that flynt would also contract peritonitis 
We have been lucky and he has recovered well with no infection and all being well his 13 stitches are being removed tomorrow.

my swampy is not good~as i type he is in hospital.
 he had an appointment at our surgery today to discuss some chest pains, so the doctor called an ambulance to take him direct to the big general hospital in southampton where he is having assorted tests....

~making music~


I have been somewhat distracted and yet again neglected this blog, despite the promises i made to myself.

i have been updating my wylde apothecary blog as i have been making new pendants and some lovely hand/wet felted cord for them...i am really happy how the felted cord has turned out and i love how they look with my pendants.




i also have a sticker-pixie who makes internal/external pagan/witch/fae themed stickers under the guise of Terra Pyksys 

***

so let me rewind a bit, back to the moongazy gathering and our night out to the Calne Folk and Acoustic Collective as we have some very talented musicians and singers in our little tribe

we were able to squeeze everyone into Pretty Pagan for the drive into Calne!






the venue was a small cafe tucked away behind the high street and we more than doubled the crowd as we went pouring in.
it was a fantastic night and the music and singing from all those who participated amazing and i wish we lived that smidge closer so we could go more often.




All things share the same breath~the beast, the tree, the man, the air shares its spirit with all the life it supports.



Chief Seattle






Johney Gaul~1915

Johney Gaul~1915
1890-17 september 1918~France