i have come to a bit of a crossroads...
its actually more than a bit.
i am close to taking a step towards putting my OU studies on hold.
for how long?
i have no idea to be honest.
i 'talked' about it with two friends via fb and this is what one of them said...
maybe this OU course isn't singing to you and the crafts are more.Do what makes you happy what makes you feel alive and happy xx
she is so right its scary.
i have been feeling no joy in picking up my books, it now feels like a millstone around my neck and when i am doing anything...anything at all...other than my studies i feel guilty.
it no longer sings to me...
what is singing to me is my crafting
as you know i have set up my little etsy shop and i have actually sold four items from my very small stock (woot!)
for ages i have wanted to take my crafting and selling the things i make further so i have been slowly gathering all the things i need to turn this into reality.
i have so many ideas and projects that are singing to me that my mind is in a constant whirl.
but also other things take a back step and i feel i have no time for other things, for my path, my sacred garden...just 'being' without feeling guilty...
i just feel that something has to be put aside and my heart tells me that its my OU, for however long it needs to be.
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but the weird thing is lots of of things have been pointing me in this new direction and it was dear lizzie fae's comment about 'singing' which helped me make my decision...
i told my dad that i had sold a few things and he said 'from little acorns'...so true!
i also did a three card reading with my druid plant oracle just after the winter solstice, i generally don't blog about my readings but i think i should here...
i was questioning if i will move forward with my craft/etsy ideas
my first card is the one that gives insight into a situation or the issue of concern
*vervain*
a beneficent cycle set in motion
inspired in creative life-Awen~
beginning of a creative cycle
my second card is how i would like the situation to be
*mistletoe*
period of difficulty ending and a new cycle dawns
beginning of new projects and phases in life to be nourished close to the heart
Awen-the three drops of inspiration
guidance, inspiration, fertility
augurs well for any creative endeavour
'all heal'-all is being healed
my third card is an insight into how i might move the situation or issue into the desired state
*woad*
striving to gain freedom
woad evokes qualities of bardism and warrior hood
we all have the bard-the creative self within us
true freedom comes when we give full expression to our creativity
what do you think my lovely bloggers?
i would value your thoughts
9 comments:
I think that you should go with what ever your heart tells you,Life is too short to sit and think things over sometimes.I wish you luck in what ever you choose to do.Love Jill xx
YES my lovely I think you are right - I've been in that place where something has to go - some things just can't be spread as thin as marmite and soul nurture is one- ooh and just after I wrote that I saw you had tagged "soul Journey" ... more spookery!! xxxx
I think you should always try and do what makes you happy.
I usually am a very reasonable, thoughtful girl who hesitates to let her heart speak. But here it is clear for me that you should do where your heart leads you. You don't have the energy to do it all, so just make what makes you happy. There will come a time, when you'll feel and think differently but I don't think you will regret putting your studies on hold now. You can always go back to that!
xoxo
I usually am a very reasonable, thoughtful girl who hesitates to let her heart speak. But here it is clear for me that you should do where your heart leads you. You don't have the energy to do it all, so just make what makes you happy. There will come a time, when you'll feel and think differently but I don't think you will regret putting your studies on hold now. You can always go back to that!
xoxo
Dear Solstice Dreamer - yes, follow your heart of course. The OU will always be there if and when you decide to pick it up again. Life's too short and too precious to waste it on things you don't HAVE to do - as all the others have advised, drop the millstone and start to have some fun! Bright blessings to you xxx
You aren't doing the OU course in order to be able to earn a living or a job promotion in the future I take it? If it's supposedly for pleasure and your own satisfaction and it isn't giving you either then put it on hold and follow the path that calls to you. Life's too short to plod on with things when you don't need to.
I too think you should follow your heart... I was reading today that we should receive and sift with the mind but determine and choose with the spirit. I like that, think first and then feel your way to a decision so that the life you lead has soul. If you look at it that way, you already know your decision!
Im so pleased you are going forward with what really makes you happy :-)Bright Blessings xx
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